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If I’m Found, by Terri Blackstock 

You know that point when you get to almost the end of a book and you must keep turning pages at the speed of an airplane? That’s this book. Actually, it’s this series. (Please read If I Run before this one. While some things wrap up at the end of the individual books, you’ll miss out on the heart of the main story, because it goes way beyond these individual titles.)

If I’m Found follows Casey’s continuing flight for her life after being accused of murdering her friend. It finds her where the first book has left her… wondering where she can go that she’ll be safe for a little while. 

One of the discussion questions Terri Blackstock has included at the back of this book is, “What is the key thing about this book that will stay with you?” Discussion questions in books are kind of a hit or miss thing for me, but I really appreciated this one. The key thing that will stay with me from this book? Its emphasis on light. In the midst of so much darkness, it would be easy for Casey to focus on that, to only see the darkness of the evil surrounding her. But she sees a glimmer of light every now and then, a little reminder that she can still have hope. She is trying so desperately to embrace the fact that, though evil may put up a good facade and it may be spreading its lies, it will not win. Not in the end. 

I really contemplated what food could correlate with this book, and.. you know those energy cookie bites that are all over pinterest? Yeah.. that’s what I have to go with. This is such an energetic book. So fast-paced that sometimes you’re not sure you’re actually sitting still.

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If I Run, by Terri Blackstock 

Before sharing my review of If I Run, my first (?!) Terri Blackstock book, I need you to know a couple of things. First, I strongly urge you to not begin reading this right before you go to sleep, especially if you are working the next day… because you won’t be able to set it down and sleep. Your eyelids may be closed, but you will refuse to let the book go until your next reading opportunity. And second… I don’t read a lot of books written in present tense. Sometimes I have trouble getting into them, for whatever reason. But this book.. it works, and frankly I don’t believe it would be as good if it weren’t written in first person, present tense. That makes this book. Because of the way the book is written, I’ve decided to mimic this in my review. While I know this isn’t typical, rather than review as a reader, I’m going to become Casey and then Dylan, the main characters in this story.

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As a 20-something wanted for murder, I’m on the run. It doesn’t even matter that I didn’t do it, I’ve got to hide, or I’m dead too. Being careful to avoid leaving a trail, I put to use all the crime stories I’ve read and watched.

My past terrifies me, both in my dreams and in my waking hours. It’s impossible to put it out of my mind, and this creates a barrier around me. I crawl into the shell of who I’ve become and rarely let anyone inside.

I’m a people lover though, and I have a hard time setting that aside to blend in with the background. Helping others is who I am. Is being available and doing what I believe is right worth risking being discovered?

They are lurking around every corner, I just know it. Still, I have to find someplace where I can get a job and save some money.

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As a veteran trying to live past PTSD and the nightmares that plague me, I question if my being hired to track down Casey is wise. Maybe I am more dangerous than helpful. What if I snap?

Following a girl who’s as smart as Casey obviously means learning to think like she thinks, and that means untangling the twisted bits of evidence and truths that surround my childhood best friend’s murder.

There’s so much that doesn’t make sense in this investigation, the facts just don’t mesh. Is this girl on the run as terrible as I am told? Nothing seems consistent with that. Not her friends, not her social media, nothing.

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Be aware that this is the first book in a trilogy. While some issues are resolved by the end of the book, others are not, and that’s not a bad thing. It creates an anticipation for the next installment in this story that wouldn’t be possible without this kind of ending.

I think I will describe this book as a pepper. The taste and spice will stay with you. Even after it’s over, you’ll still be contemplating.

*I received a copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.

 
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Posted by on May 12, 2016 in Murder, PTSD, Suspense, Terri Blackstock